Time seems to keep passing me by, falling like sand through my fingers. With a new year upon us, I feel myself reflecting and re-evaluating with a renewed sense of enthusiasm to reclaim my time, my body, my space, but most of all, my time.
I am typically drawn to processes. How things come to be. Procedures. Relationships. Perhaps this is the advocate in me wanting to ensure fairness and justice. Similarly, I am fascinated in the method in which to go about setting goals, accomplishing goals, and productivitiy as a whole. The defining moment of becoming a mother threw me off the charts into a different algorithm with different indicators for success.
More to the point, here we are again. Months have passed since my last posts. I still long to post more, have more time to do things I want to do, more time for work that I need to do.
My Tūtū passed at the end of last year. No words can fully express how thankful I am to have had so much time with her. Lots more on her to come. But for now, I’ve been doing more reflecting than any other year, I think.
Reflecting can be difficult at times. What I did. What I didn’t do. But reflecting can also be uplifting. Thinking back, it’s easier to remember the fun and joyful times, isn’t it? The dips and lows seem to fade away.
As I continue reflecting and identifying my 2020 (and beyond) goals, there are two things that I have decided on (for now at least):
1) my word for 2020 is: be.
Be.
Just be.
Be me. Be all of me. Be truly me. Be present.
Be.
2) I will focus more on a short-term, likely monthly, basis in identifying smaller goals that will build up to bigger goals. I will focus more on smaller goals and track my progress consistently.
What are your goals? How do you identify goals?